San Francisco, what a special place you have, in me.
I don’t remember you looking any better But then again I don’t remember you.
yesterday. gym. i felt alone, in a gym full of people. distant. and once again, the fake laughter. i dont like that eugene isnt at trainings. boring, no fun. but then again, his absence is replaced by a seriousness. one that keeps me focused. it motivates me, it pushes me. inner strength, weird but, its there.
weights that i didnt know i could do, making me feel like my strength didnt drop at all. all inside me, when i get angry, channel it well, never ever let it eat you up inside. thats the strength i relied on yesterday, inner rage. im all calm now, but inside me, theres a teeeney lil memory, it brought out the rage in me.
(haha why on earth am i typing it all out here.)
Sunday, December 27, 2009
babe youre trying too hard.
doing so much, trying to impress.
TRYING. not succeeding.
you should just stop. and give up.
cuz youve already got me.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
standing at the gates, staring at the beauty inside.
she said" i dont know whats it like" i thought " i want to feel that way, after seeing these people around us, i want to be in love, and do foolish things"
" would you do it with me?"
and and
-next scene
i want everything, or nothing at all. because. anything short of 100% is not good enough.
Gods standard is there, would you stray below that?
its dam dam dam hard. to stay on that lonely road. the straight one.
hehe i should write a play someday.
Friday, December 25, 2009
watched twilight again, twas awesome, STILL
both songs from twilight 1
and then went for jem's church thing, was fun. was ok. i was quite critical, but caught the heart of the performers. was sweet la. coulda been better. went to bedok 85 for dinner, and made it home on the last 58 bus. dam DAAM HAPPY.
anyways. sam fan was on the bus with me, and and. mp3! she let me listen to bryan adams.
i am dying,forever crying. to be near you, to be saved.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
CHRISTMAS AT GAB'S
WE ROASTED A TURKEY, WE STUFFED A turkey!
WE ROASTED A PIG KNUCKLE!
WE ATE TWO LOG CAKES
WE PLAYED SOCCER ON PS3
WE took pics!
we swapped presents!
it was awesome. pics soon
Monday, December 21, 2009
old old song!
mum's chicken soup sure warmed my heart. chicken soup for the soul indeed.
shopping helps, talking helps, walking in the rain helps.
stupid test feels like a nightmare. from anger -> disapointment -> annoyed. aye i should drown myself in studies, something time consuming and rewarding.
i cried today.
twice. yeah. ok i wont call it a CRY. just. tears. sad. dam dam sad.
driving test. i failed. nuff said. dam dissapointed, sad, and very very down. went home, cried, slept.
had 5 hours sleep? woke up 4 times in the night. every hour, i'd wake up, and think i took the test and already failed. it was horrible, like, i couldnt keep my thoughts away from driving. i kept thinking i had alot alot of immediate failures.
then i'd wake up, and find out that i was 3 hours from my test.
and when i did the test, i wasnt scared, but my body was. my legs, trembled. like violent shaking. i cant describe it any other way. even COXING wasnt that bad. it was hoorible. it was
it was. gosh. i cant describe how the experience was. i dont, i hate this feeling. this failure. i was soo affected by it, i couldnt smile the entire day.
went out with jy, winnie amanda, then later on, mark.
it helped a little, they brought me to a place where i got presents for my family. heh ive got homework and stuff to do, and it appears, every little thing can and will remind me of the failed driving test.
oh and we caught a movie, Bodyguards and Assassins, or the other way round. its all about china and the rebels and the staging of an uprising against the Qing Dynasty. didnt know the show was gonna be with such a strong plot, it was so so, um.
dam sad also. dam touching, freaking sad, and it made me feel better, by making me feel worst. father, watched his son die. WTS la. not helping?
so you $#%& away, into a grey sky morning. left me here to stay, aye, love can be so boring.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
TC = ttc + vc + Tvc + trans c + FOH + ederlly
10 X $7.2 19.95 1.35 X 2 1.40
haha. funneh day. yay driving! 96.05 thats dinner time!
